Hello @Myvoice welcome to the Forum. I do hope you find it helpful to read community members stories and contribute your own, if you feel that is something you want to do.
http://www.galop.org.uk/lgbt-survivors/forums/topic/will-he-change/ has recently been posted on incase this is of interest to you. Or you may like to share your story http://www.galop.org.uk/lgbt-survivors/forums/forum/share-your-story/ here
Also there is a couple of virtual peer to peer support groups coming up, incase these are useful for you to know about http://www.galop.org.uk/lgbt-survivors/forums/topic/virtual-support-groups-for-lgbt-survivors-march-2021/
Wishing you a good day π
The Helpline team